The end
of the year and the start of a new one culturally brings about the desire to
review. For us the current season of life started about a year and a half ago.
Loss…
This past
season of life has been full of loss. We’ve lost loved ones to death. Joey’s
mom. His uncle. His aunt. My grandmother. And we’ve walked with several friends
through the losses of their loved ones. There has been an abundance of other
types of losses too. Leaving Congo brought about the loss of teammates, the
loss of our home, the loss of the known, the loss of friends, and the loss of
our identity to some extent. Other situations since have brought the loss of
other relationships. When I think back on this past year or so, the reality of
all the loss stands out in my mind and sits heavy on my heart. It has been
challenging to process these losses and in many ways we are still grieving even
as we move forward.
Reflection…
This past
year has also been a season of great reflection. Seeking God’s direction for
our future. Recalling the hand of God in the past. Particularly, the events of
our move from Congo to Lesotho brought on reflection. What had God done with
our time in Congo? What had he done in those around us? What had he done in us?
What does he have in store for the future? God has blessed us with some small
glimpses into things he has done these past 10 years with MAF. It is
encouraging and strengthening as we look to the future and strive to follow Him
into this new season of ministry.
Peace…
In the
midst of the loss and reflection, God has allowed us a season of peace. It has
been unlike any season we have ever walked through. I still find myself
surprised by moments of calm when His presence and goodness have been
unexpected and overwhelming. It is like knowing someone and suddenly finding a
new side of them that you knew existed, but you have never been around for.
Gratitude…
We have
found ourselves grateful for it all…the losses, the challenges of the past, the
pain, the joys, the opportunity to glimpse God’s hand at work. Gratitude in the
midst of heartache is hard. For years we have fought to lead our hearts.
Sometimes winning and sometimes losing that battle. Right now it feels like we
are resting in gratitude.
There is
a song that Joey heard years ago when in the midst of a challenging, heart
breaking time. It was sung by a little girl and made an impact on us. It came
to mind again this summer on a day of grief. It may seem like an odd song for such
times, but it has come to be the song for us for this season of life.
